WELCOME 2005

OH GOD!! Thank you 2005 for finally coming!! Wwwhhheeeeeeeeeewwww!! Yeeeeeeeeeee HAWW!! 2005 has got to be a better year for me. 2003 and 2004 were filled with so many hard lessons and shitty occurences that they felt like one year for me. I do have to say that 2003/2004 has really changed my life in many ways... for the better. It's forced me to be more of an adult that ever before. It's like that holy moment in one's life where you either take control or step aside. I've had my chops busted about something and everything by everybody it seems. Essentially, I recognized changes I've needed to make in my life and attitude. I learned this, you can have all the best intentions but good intentions don't prevent shit from going bad. I won't get into details but no, I didn't kill anyone, I didn't get arrested, I didn't fuck anyone against their will.

Through 2003/2004, it was not total pain an suffering, it's like that huge transition period that I hear people talk about all the time. It's weird really. There is so much involved, I don't even want to think about putting it all in one blog. I do know this; 2005 will not be the answer to all of my issues and questions, however, I'm looking at it as the year that marks a turning point for me. I'm tired about getting my chops busted, I'm tired of disappointing people, I'm tired of being depressed. I deserve a fulfilling life.